Thursday, September 08, 2022

Meritocracy - My Take

This post is a response to a recent opinion piece in the New York Times entitled School Is for Merit, by Asra Q. Nomani.  As over the years I've written a lot about education, mostly about higher ed but then sometimes about K-12 as well, here I'm mainly going to excerpt from previous pieces and then provide the links to the full piece as well.  Since readers sometime comment that I'm prolix in writing these blog posts, let me cut to the chase and only after that make my full argument. 

There is much dysfunction in education these days.  I'm certainly not the first to note it.  This dysfunction exists even at schools in upper middle class and wealthy school districts.  The dysfunction is the core issue that needs remedy, which will not be simple to consider nor to implement.  The system may do well by a very small fraction of the students, but it is failing many others, including those with high GPAs. Talking about meritocracy, the way Ms. Nomani does, is applying a surface solution that won't fix the underlying problem.  I am not writing to defend recent changes that she takes up (e.g. dropping the requirement of standardized test scores for college admission).  Those too provide a surface solution.   Let's talk about the underlying issues and see if we can agree on those.   That's my aim below. 

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The following is an excerpt from a post called The double-edged sword we refer to as 'high expectations' and gets at a fundamental issue when grades become prominent.  The post was written at the end of the fall semester in 2015.  I struggled with that class.  In the previous three years teaching. the course had been more rewarding. 

First and foremost is the question whether ordinary students are willing to endure the frequent failure that is necessary for real learning.  Two reasons why they may not are: (1) potential damage to the GPA in so doing and (2) potential damage to the student's ego from feeling embarrassed by being awkward in front of others - classmates and especially the teacher.

As to (1), real learning takes as long as it takes.  On the other hand, exams happen at times scheduled well in advance.  One explanation for why students memorize in advance of exams is that it seems a more reliable approach for readying oneself against the vicissitudes of the exam, while containing the readying activity to a manageable time period. In turn, such students then grow to expect the instructor to teach to the test, so when such expectations are confirmed memorizing the lecture notes ends up indeed being good preparation.  There is also that this becomes a learned behavior (in the sense of habit formation) so even in those circumstances where the instructor offers up questions on the exam that follow only indirectly from the lectures, many students will still prepare as they have in their other courses, for lack of a viable alternative.

The above is an indirect argument that grades are pernicious in encouraging real learning with ordinary students, as too many of them will opt for the self-protection described in the previous paragraph, when the grade consequences are sufficiently severe.  Alternatively, it can be taken as an argument in support of grade inflation.  If students are convinced they will do reasonably well grade-wise as long as they attain a minimal performance standard - e.g., showing up and being counted - then they have less need to self-protect via memorization and might be more willing to go through the steps it takes to produce real learning.  This gets us to (2).

If a student is not self-conscious, then it is possible the student will be oblivious to the risk of failure.  In turn, that lack of self-consciousness can lead to deep learning as the student gets fully absorbed in the subject matter.  It may be the honors students differ from regular students mostly in this lack of self-consciousness and hence in their ability to concentrate. For a student who is self-conscious and who does fear failure as a consequence, a different approach is needed if the student is to engage in real learning.  The student must be convinced that failure is no big deal.  Failure is just an ordinary part of learning, necessary early steps if you will. The way to convince students of this is to create a safe space in which students are encouraged to fail and fail often, all as part of the larger process.

This post followed one I had written a few years earlier entitled, Why does memorization persist as the primary way that students study for exams?

The hypothesis, not particularly novel or really much of a surprise but I've never seen it expressed quite this way, is that The Disengagement Compact, George Kuh's aptly put but discouraging label for the unholy implicit contract between students and instructor, where no party is burdened much at all while all parties get to reside in a virtual Lake Woebegone, is manifest in a very particular way.  If the Disengagement Compact is the Devil making himself known in undergraduate education, then memorization is the Devil's disciple, an artifice for claiming both that learning is happening and that substantial effort in the name of learning is occurring.  Hardly anybody, after all, wants to be labeled a slacker.   Further, students want to resist the damning evidence of low grades.  So students somehow feel that they've been tasked by their instructors to memorize course content.  Many instructors indeed do task their students this way so as to satisfy student expectations and thereby avoid their enmity.  

I should have added here that course evaluations matter, more so for non-tenure-track faculty, whose jobs may depend on them.  If these instructors satisfy their students' grade expectations, they are apt to get tolerably good course evaluations.  This gives one real reason for why instructors participate in the implicit contract. 

Let me turn to a different learning issue, one that is highlighted in the book, Excellent Sheep, by William Deresiewicz, where he was writing about students at Yale who took an English class from him.  In my reframing of the issues considered there, students become excellent at jumping through hoops that elders (parents and teachers) set, but they never learn what pleases themselves other than purely hedonistic pleasure, so they surely don't learn what activities they should engage in that would produce this sense of pleasing themselves. They live in an artificial world created by the adults around them.  Inwardly, many are quite depressed, for life has no real meaning to them. 

In the process of reading Excellent Sheep, I wrote a post about my own experience in high school entitled, I was not a sheep. Were you?  I will not put an excerpt from that piece here, but the various factors I list are worth considering.  Since writing this post I've come to embrace the expression, the student has to drive the bus.   My belief is that if the student does this willingly and with sufficient commitment then deep learning will happen, life will then have meaning, and the dysfunction I mentioned at the outset will largely disappear.  The questions remains, how do we get there from here?

A student will drive the bus when the student is intrinsically motivated.  The dedicated instructor who wants to promote deep learning will then ask, how can I teach my class so as to intrinsically motivate my students?  Pretty soon after posing that question, the instructor will want to know about the relationship between extrinsic motivation and intrinsic motivation.   I consider this in a post called, Is Daniel Pink Confusing Us About Motivation And Economic Incentives?  This excerpt is from the post.

Main point of Dan Pink's talk: When we are already intrinsically motivated applying extrinsic motivation, in the form of reward for good behavior or punishment for bad behavior, is self-defeating because it detracts from the intrinsic motivation, a much more powerful force.

I completely agree with this point. When intrinsically motivated we lose sense of ourselves. We are totally into the activity, whether reading a great book, watching a fascinating movie, or working through a problem or puzzle that has captured our attention. The object of that attention becomes the entire universe. It is as if we are in a bubble that we are permitted to remain inside so long as we focus only on its contents. Extrinsic motivation of any kind makes us self-conscious. It bursts the bubble. Intellectually, it is like holding up a mirror. Once we look at ourselves, it is very difficult if not impossible to re-enter the bubble.

Later in the post I argue that eventually the bubble will burst of its own accord.  It can't last forever.   At this point extrinsic incentive is needed to contract anew with the student and hope another round of intrinsic motivation can ensue.   To make this concrete, in the course I had been teaching during retirement I had the students do weekly blogging.  I gave feedback on each post they wrote with extensive comments.  But I employed portfolio grading - at mid semester there would be a grade for the posts in the first half of the course and at end of semester there would be a grade for the remaining posts.  There would also be some comment to explain the grade given.  This certainly wasn't perfect.  But it is in the spirit of how we might teach to practice what is being preached here.

I want to change gears now. Let's focus on that unusual student who does learn in a deep way that is evident to others and in so doing learns to please himself or herself.   Does the way this student performs have an impact on the learning of other students?  Quite possibly, the answer is yes.   The following is about my experience in Social Studies, when I regularly raised my hand in response to questions posed by our teacher, and then would give an extensive answer, one that most other students in the class wouldn't have come up with.  It is from a post called, When Boys Had To Wear Ties To School.

Yet consciously, it was just me being me.  At that level I'm quite sure I was not trying to impress my classmates.  Was that naiveté or something else?  I did learn near the end of 7th grade that it can cut the other way.  We had autograph books which we got others in our class to sign, after saying something they felt about the person.  One girl wrote that I made her feel uncomfortable in class.  Had I gotten many such comments, I might have changed my in-class behavior.  With just this one comment, while it bothered me, I didn't make any adjustment at all. 

That very good students might intimidate more average students should come as no surprise.  Later, both in high school and then in college, I witnessed this intimidation as deliberate, a kind of trash talking by nerds. When the nerds are themselves friendly with each other it may be no-harm-no-foul.  Otherwise it might be a defense mechanism to hide being socially inept in other ways.  More recently, I've had some friends in Facebook tell me that I was a positive role model for them academically, encouraging them to apply themselves more. Fifty plus years after the fact, I'm willing to admit the possibility though I'm still skeptical about it in this instance.  The overall point is this.  There can be externalities in how the behavior of one student impacts the learning of the other.  A full analysis would aggregate those and then consider the benefits and costs.  It is insufficient to simply consider the benefits for the winners in the meritocratic lottery. 

The same issue can be applied to our national politics, where there seems to be much anger and resentment by Conservatives aimed at Liberal elites, with the Liberals too smug to realize they are causing this reaction and/or blaming it entirely on the media that over hypes what Liberals are trying to achieve.  I wrote about this in a post called Unintentionally Making Others Feel Stupid.  An evident solution to this issue would be to have Liberals communicate a sense of humility on the matter.  But with what now feels like a virtual civil war between Republicans and Democrats, I doubt that such a concession can or will be made in the near future.

The last issue I'll take up here is about the role of meritocracy in school and what graduates earn in the labor market thereafter.   In a post called Pluck or Luck I wrote the following:

The next day I stumbled onto a Web site that articulates The Just World Theory, and makes reference to a book from 1980 called The Belief in a Just World: A Fundamental Delusion.  That the book is from more than 30 years ago suggests the issue has been with us for quite some time.  The Just World Theory leaves out any role for luck whatsoever.  People get what they deserve.  It is an extreme form of hindsight bias.

Zick Rubin of Harvard University and Letitia Anne Peplau of UCLA have conducted surveys to examine the characteristics of people with strong beliefs in a just world. They found that people who have a strong tendency to believe in a just world also tend to be more religious, more authoritarian, more conservative, more likely to admire political leaders and existing social institutions, and more likely to have negative attitudes toward underprivileged groups. To a lesser but still significant degree, the believers in a just world tend to "feel less of a need to engage in activities to change society or to alleviate plight of social victims."

I want to confront this with some very particular data, which I used the last time I taught, back in fall 2019.  On the second worksheet of this Excel workbook there is salary data from 2018 for Econ department Assistant Professors and Specialized Faculty (teaching faculty not on the tenure track).  There is some discussion of those data in this post to the course Website.   Also included for comparison is my salary from back in 1980, when I first started at Illinois as an Assistant Professor on the tenure track, with an inflation adjustment that is imperfect but workable. The reader should get the message that in 1980 I was earning less in real terms than specialized faculty were earning when teaching in 2018, and assistant professors in 2018 were earning a helluva lot more.  This is one simple snapshot of a much larger phenomenon. The increasing income inequality in the society overall has lifted incomes within the top 10% of the distribution substantially. Is that windfall justice or mere happenstance?  If the latter, shouldn't those benefiting from the windfall be willing to accept substantially less in compensation? That question was meant in a normative sense.  In a positive sense, do we actually expect that?  I surely don't.

Let me wrap up.  I could have written a somewhat different post, one that focuses on core competencies - being able to read with meaning, being comfortable in having an open conversation that isn't mediated by a smart phone, having a good enough people network to be able to go ask for help from someone who is able and willing to provide it, and perhaps some others as well.  If those core competencies were there, then perhaps layering meritocracy in school on top of that wouldn't be so bad.  But if those core competencies aren't there, then what are we doing when talking about meritocracy?  I chose to write the post as I did, because people compensate for their own deficiencies and we should be aware of the typical forms that those compensations take.  Yet the point remains the same.  What's fundamental is the need to address those deficiencies.  Meritocracy then becomes mere window dressing.  Let's focus on the fundamentals.

Monday, September 05, 2022

A Flight of Fancy

A little boy
Inside an old man
Wanted a toy
Catch as catch can.

One with string
And folded paper
So it can sing
And pull off the caper.

Flying a kite
Internal to the mind
Already in mid flight
Then he can unwind.

A simple thing
The joy it can give
What memories bring
So childhood can live.




Monday, August 29, 2022

A Stab at Writing Fiction

Adventures Of The Minute Women

For the past month or so, I've been working on writing a novelette with the intent of publishing one chapter a week. There is enough written now that you can get started with it if you'd like.
 
It's a very idealistic (wishful thinking) story of how our national politics might play out, with the change agents coming from outside of the political arena. 
 
The chapters and the preface are available in two different formats. One is as blog posts, where there is the usual scrolling. The other is as pdf files, which have page numbers. The latter can be read online or downloaded. The Navigating The Site tab explains how to access these.
 
Enjoy!

 

Na Na Na Na Hey Hey Goodbye

From the bully pulpit
To the pulpit of a bully
If he is a culprit
Then prosecute him fully.
#AboveTheLawOrGuffawGuffaw

Monday, August 22, 2022

When You Can't Triangulate The Information

A source you don't trust tells the truth
Believing them is just so uncouth
So what do you do
Do you tend to eschew
Then look for something strong to mix with the vermouth?
#TiredOutByNewsThatDisagreesWithOurPriorViews

Monday, August 15, 2022

The Writer Does The Work So The Reader Doesn't Have To --- Really?

Proofreading such a difficult task
It's tempting to take out a flask
A remark ad hominem
About the evil homonym
In its glare the author doesn't bask.
#TotallyUninvitingEditingYourOwnWriting

Monday, August 08, 2022

Jestation

Is there a value add
With a joke that's incredibly bad?
An audible groan
Followed by a moan
Then the smile appears showing he's glad.
#HowElseCanWePreserveOurSanity

Monday, August 01, 2022

Mother Nature Sending Us A Message

The lull after a storm
Calm which is not the norm
But then comes the noise
Creativity it destroys
The blather makes us conform.
#TheMorningRoutineAHideousScene

Sunday, July 31, 2022

When A Bob Dylan Song Repeatedly Plays In Your Head

Beginning the day with a lark
After it stopped being dark
He tried to live last night's dream
Or so it would seem
A hippie finding new friends in the park.
#ItsAllOverNowBabyBlue

Friday, July 29, 2022

Why There Is Entropy

Sometimes you just guess
The start of making a mess
But when you do not see
What remains is mystery.
#ThePlotSickens

Thursday, July 28, 2022

Dr. Suess for Senior Citizens

The Wump of Gump
Met the Wimp of Gimp
Who was sitting on a tree stump
As he was weary from his limp.
#WhatGoesAroundComesAround

Wednesday, July 27, 2022

So Many One Liners That We Remember

No talent for being a gaucho
He tried to imitate Groucho
To ward off a pip
He aimed for a quip
About Mr. Potato Head on the couch-o.
#IdWalkAMileForACalomel

Tuesday, July 26, 2022

Moving Your Mindset Temporally

Living in the future
Or instead in the past
A wound needing a suture
Or a wonderful repast.
#ThePresentTenseIsTooIntense

Monday, July 25, 2022

See What I Mean?

Why can't they invent
Something that will prevent
Eyeglasses from smudging?
For now I'm begrudging
A process that won't relent.
#WhenYourGazeIsInAHaze

Sunday, July 24, 2022

Going Off Your Rocker As A Rational Choice

This is a sequel to my Simon Says - Malaise post.  I actually tried to write a different sequel first, about the next steps in fully engaging in the virtual civil war with the Republicans, for which I sketched some preliminary ideas in that Simon Says post. But I found myself with a full case of writer's block.  I questioned whether I had sufficient expertise to write such a post in a convincing way.  The last time I taught, fall 2019, I supposedly did have some expertise in college teaching, I found my ability to influence student learning quite limited.  Consequently, it seemed pure hubris on my part to expect stronger results in another domain where the expertise is lacking. Certainly, I have many speculations about the topic, each of which make sense to me.  But to persuade others you need more than speculation. So, for now I'm putting that post aside.

Instead, I'm going to focus on the other option in the earlier post, complete disengagement from politics and the news.  Do you really need to go off your rocker to completely disengage?  While I don't want to give my punchline just yet, I can provide a partial answer here.  For certain types of people this is how it's done.  I'm one of those.  For others who aren't one of these types, tuning out in this way may be much harder.  If so, there is less to commend it as a course of action.  The kibitzing about the politics has become a form of social interaction.  In this age of Covid, maybe it is a necessary way to interact with friends.  To the extent that somebody needs to feel socially connected as a way of being whole, tuning out then comes at too high a price to the psyche.

What I intend to do here is to bring in a set of disparate sources and then try to make sense of them when taken together.  Let me begin with this opinion piece, Taking the Magic Out of Magic Mushrooms.  The piece is about using what we used to call hallucinogenic drugs, or their synthetic substitutes, to combat depression.  It's an interesting read. 

While reading this piece, I asked myself whether I would like to take some magic mushrooms now, if I were provided the opportunity to do so.  At this time, I'm undecided on the answer to that question.  Certainly, there is curiosity about what would happen.  But with the various aches and pains I have now as well as my concerns about U.S. politics and Covid, my personal equilibrium is more fragile than I would like and I'm wary of upsetting it.   The piece did cause me to reflect about depression, as I've had prior experience with it during adolescence, once in high school, then again in college.

Indeed, over the years I've written several posts about depression, some which might still be worth reading.  This one, written soon after Robin Williams committed suicide, got some appreciative comments from Facebook friends, Depression in Performing Artists as a Reflection on Ourselves.  In my experience there clearly was a linkage between depression and "environmental factors", with depression resulting from feeling trapped with no way out. The question then is how to prevent this from happening, if at all possible or to find a way out, however unlikely.  This next one was written after having a bad experience in teaching during fall 2016, where I also had a bad experience the previous fall. (I was only teaching one course a year in retirement.)  It was beginning to look like the new normal and that was getting me down, as I put a lot of energy and attention into the teaching.  While ultimately I didn't fall into depression, and I taught again in fall 2017 and fall 2019, I needed to get my head oriented to something entirely different - Putting My Brain In Mothballs.  This last one I wrote in spring 2020, so after the pandemic had started and after reading many pieces about it causing anxiety and depression in students.  I had actually seen that in my students during fall 2019.  The situation was bad ahead of time.  Clearly the pandemic made it much worse.  I thought that people with more experience who had depression in the past and learned coping skills to ward it off should make those overt to current students.  So I wrote,  Fending Off Depression - My Take.

Now I want to move on and consider when the environmental factors are mainly one's own health, but for the moment not consider prior mental health illness.  I will do that below.  Our healthcare system seems to provide at least some monitoring of a patient's potential depression, while being treated for chronic illness and/or after the patient has reached a certain age.  The image below is taken from the healthcare portal my provider uses, under the tab labelled Preventative Care.  


I find it reassuring to see the flu vaccine there.  Some preventative care is pretty ordinary stuff.  I'm not sure what the Annual Fall Assessment is supposed to be.  I do have an annual checkup with my primary care physician, usually around my birthday in January, though as of late he has been hard to schedule and it has been later than that.  I was surprised when I saw the Annual Depression Screening, the first time I saw it.  When I clicked it to find out about the previously done dates, I learned that those were visits to my oncologist.  I received radiation treatment for prostate cancer in 2018.  Since then we have been in monitoring mode, to make sure the cancer is not returning.  At first, the visits were every three months.  I have since "graduated" to a visit every six months.  I have such a visit next week.

During treatment, which was daily on weekdays, for a total of 44 treatments, I would see the doctor on Wednesday after the treatment was over.  Between those a nurse would do a quick examination of vitals and related matters. As part of the examination I would be asked - are you depressed?  I came up with this pat response.  Of course I'm depressed.  Everybody in America is depressed, but it's politics that's the cause not the cancer.  Sometimes the techs who would administer the radiation treatment would ask me the question as we walked from the waiting room to the room that had the Tomography machine.  Over time they learned that I was a Yankees fan.  After the Yankees lost to the Red Sox in the playoffs, I said I was really depressed.  Everybody got a good laugh.  

Prostate cancer itself, especially when it has been detected early, should not be a cause of depression.  It is eminently treatable, with a high likelihood of remission. And the symptoms are comparatively mild - fatigue during the day that is remedied with a nap and having to go to the bathroom more frequently to pee. The latter persists after treatment and as getting up at night to go to the bathroom becomes routine, a sound sleep is harder to come by so the fatigue persists as well for that reason.  But an MRI done prior to treatment suggested there might be other cancer spots outside of the prostate. That the cancer might have spread to nearby bone did a number on my head.  For the first time in my life, I seriously contemplated my own mortality and there is no doubt I became very anxious about my health.   Coupled with that was the insurance company refusing to pay for more sophisticated testing that would diagnose what was really going on.  I became frustrated by that as the doctor seemed frustrated as well.  

Ultimately, it was the right decision for the insurance company to turn down these advanced tests. It encouraged my doctor to consult with a different radiologist than the one who had initially read the MRI.  Apparently, a spot with arthritis can show up in an MRI and look much like a spot with cancer, especially to the untutored eye. One has to take a more holistic view of the patient's health to get an accurate reading. In my case what the MRI and a subsequent bone scan showed is that I am riddled with arthritis in a variety of locations in my body, but the cancer itself was contained within the prostate. The awareness of the true situation prevented depression from ensuing, even if from time to time when the arthritis is bad I start to feel sorry for myself and then can be self-indulgent.  When the more severe pain passes, I go back to being me as I ordinarily am.

Let me turn to prior mental health issues as a potential cause of depression, and with that offer up a warning both about labels with mental illness and with causality.  (Does mental illness cause depression or does depression cause mental illness?)  Perhaps the most famous such case is that of Vincent Van Gogh.  I found the Irving Stone book, Lust for Life, a good read.  Though it is historical fiction, it is based on the letters Vincent wrote to his brother Theo.  The movie based on the book is also not bad.  When I was a kid I liked Kirk Douglas as an actor.  As an adult I grew into thinking of the Douglas approach as over-acting.  In the role of Vincent Van Gogh, however, the Douglas style works as it helps to convey the intensity in Van Gogh's personality, even prior to any of his manic episodes. Van Gogh was said to have epilepsy, though in doing a Google search I saw that view contested, with his behavior better explained by chronic malnutrition and excessive drinking.  Who knows?  Van Gogh ultimately committed suicide. Before that, he surely was experiencing some kind of mental pain. 

Another famous case is that of John Nash.  Sylvia Nasar's book, A Beautiful Mind, is worthwhile reading and I believe gives a good picture of what Nash was really like. In contrast, the movie version while entertaining seemed entirely other than the book, in part because it got caught up in finding a way to externalize Nash's hallucinations.  Nash had schizophrenia.  The book talks about linkages between schizophrenia and creativity, particularly among mathematicians.  When I was a graduate student at Northwestern in economics, I remember a presentation by the game theorist Lloyd Shapley, not for the content of the talk but because his physical presence struck me as that of somebody who was truly crazy.  Maybe he didn't get much sleep the night before or perhaps there was some other benign explanation for what I saw.  I know nothing of Shapley's personal life, so can't really comment about the cause here.  Nonetheless, this sense of linkage between extreme creativity and mental illness survives in present day thinking and should be noted. Getting back to Nash, after his schizophrenia diagnosis, Nash was put on medication that held the disease in check.  But the meds also suppressed his creativity, which gave him a reason for not taking the pills.  Was this tension between creativity and living with a sense of normalcy a source of depression?  Perhaps it was.  Nash died in a car accident, where he was a passenger. There is no information about his mental state in that cause of death. 

There is some history of mental illness in my family on my mother's side.  In the early 1930s, my grandfather jumped out of the window of their apartment in Berlin, an attempted suicide.  He survived this.  (He and my grandmother later died in a concentration camp.)  To explain why he did this, my mother said he had a premonition that Hitler was coming.  Whether this premonition itself was due entirely to external causes or, instead, if my grandfather was "crazy" in some way is impossible to know now. 

My mother herself had a very strong personality.  I described her as something of a bulldozer in this post. Growing up, I attributed much of how she went about things to having been an adolescent in Nazi Germany.  It didn't occur to me at the time that there might be genetic explanations for her behavior.  Sometime later, when our younger son was in daycare, he got tested and then diagnosed with a mild form of autism, Asperger's Syndrome if you will. When I read up a little on that, particularly the controlling behaviors that results from an inability to adjust to changing environments, I thought it described my mom quite well.  That felt like a revelation.  Further, though I don't believe I'm controlling in this same way, I did exhibit some of the symptoms as a teen.  When I received counseling for my depression in tenth grade, much time was spent on getting me to make good eye contact with the counselor. Beforehand, I would shy away from that, particularly when with authority figures I didn't otherwise know. It was noticeable.  My brother reported remembering me doing that in a recent family Zoom call.  The counseling was effective that way.  Whether it also helped me inwardly with the causes for the behavior I'm still unsure of that, 50+ years later.  Nonetheless, I'm fairly certain that I still have Autism Spectrum Disorder, though perhaps a high functioning variety. 

While it might not be as highly regarded among research psychologists, Myers-Briggs typing remains popular among management consultants and those who have received such consultation.  I was tested back in 2003 prior to attending the Frye Leadership Institute and learned that my type is INTP.   Is there some correlation between being this type and having Asperger's?  I would guess there is, though perhaps it would be better to have all the NT types aggregated before considering this correlation.  The following is from a post called Going Against Type:

Sir Ken Robinson in this delightful and provocative Ted Talk called Do schools kill creativity? says that professors are unlike their students in that the professors live in their minds while their students live in the real world.  (Sounds familiar, doesn't it?)  Professors tend to teach the subject matter and not individualize their content depending on the student's personality type.  In so doing, are they actually targeting their own personality type (which is very likely to be NT)?  If so, what of the poor students who are unlucky enough to take the course though they are SFs? 

A bit earlier I wrote a post call The Professor Mind, which aimed at giving more flesh to Ken Robinson's description of the professor.  Some of the post is taken up with the nature of intellectual inquiry and then getting stuck in the process.  Getting stuck is a normal thing.  So, one who lives the life of the mind needs to develop methods for getting unstuck.  There is a wonderful book, though I found it hard to penetrate initially, called On Not Being Able to Paint.  The author, Marion Milner, makes the argument (perhaps only implicitly) that we rely too much on our rational selves in our thinking.  We need our subconscious selves to be active to release our creativity.  The rational self often blocks that out. This is why sleeping on a problem where you are stuck can possibly reveal new and better approaches to problem solving after you awaken.  The dreaming attacks the problem in ways that can't be done while awake.  Milner doesn't talk about drugs inducing this dream state, but if the reader goes back to consider the Magic Mushrooms piece, perhaps the good consequences about curing depression result from this release of the subconscious self.  Alternatively, perhaps it is possible that those who live the life of the mind become depressed when working on a problem they find important only to get stuck and then finding no way to get unstuck.  The simple answer - work on some other problem - has then become unacceptable because the problem itself is too compelling.

I want to make the argument personal again.  I'll do this by juxtaposing the consequences of aging on the professor mind.  At the time I attended the Frye Institute I was 48, a good deal older than many of the others, who were in their early to mid 30's.  It was noticeable to me how much mentally quicker they were. Though I was their age in a pre-Internet world, so didn't have all the varied information sources coming at me in way where I needed to make sense of it all, I did recall to an even earlier time in life - high school - where I surely was mentally quick.  This sort of slowing down over time is likely inevitable.  Nonetheless, I found it worrisome when at Frye, then somewhat humbling after that.  Some years later, I can't remember how many now, the senior moments started to happen.  It is frustrating to feel that you know something, but can't recall the name or the face, or whatever else you are trying to remember.  What comes next in this dimension?

My mother had Alzheimer's or some other form of dementia.  That last five years of her life, she couldn't recognize me when I went to visit her in Boca Raton.  I later learned from my brother, who is an MD, that she actually showed signs of dementia more than 10 years earlier, but perhaps her doctors couldn't separate out the consequences of that versus her reaction to the strong medication she was on.  Since my prostate cancer, I've feared that I would get an early onset of dementia. Recently, I did some Google searching to learn there is a positive correlation between autism and dementia.  Likewise, I'd suspect such a correlation between the professor mind and dementia.

Back in the 1980s when I was doing economic theory full time, there was a tee shirt that graduate students studying economic theory would wear - Do You Live In Your Model?  The insight in that question is that you needed to mentally occupy your model for a sustained period of time, perhaps several months, before fully understanding the implications of the model and then being able to write up the results from that.  Of course, even with living in your model there still was the practical reality of day-to-day life.  For that you needed to live in the real world.  So it was necessary to be able to mentally transition between the two.  Time of day was largely the determinant of which world you'd occupy, though there are certain real-world tasks, washing the dishes is my canonical example, that may be done autonomously in which case that is time that can be devoted to living in your model. 

When in the mid 1990s I gradually switched careers, ultimately to become an administrator for online learning on campus, there was some change in the living-in-the-model notion but maybe not as much as one might guess.  To the extent that much of the job was talking one-on-one with other people on campus who were engaged with online learning in some capacity, it was a delightful alternative to pondering deeply (or otherwise) while sitting in my office.  Much less satisfying were the various committee meetings or staff meetings that I had to attend and ditto for the myriad meetings with vendors. Given this, it is perhaps surprising that I flourished in group interaction online, which was opt in by the participants, who had a substantial prior interest in online learning.  (Further, it was purely asynchronous and completely text-based, so unlike much group interaction now.) It seemed I was a natural for this sort of communication.  Indeed, I probably got invited to work in SCALE by how others perceived my participation in the discussion group held in FirstClass. At the time, with very young kids at home, this activity also served as a proxy for a social life with adult interaction. 

While this paper was written before all of us were using the Internet, I've found that Kenneth Bruffee's "Collaborative Learning and the "Conversation of Mankind" very useful in categorizing the relationship between thinking and communication.  It is helpful to consider it all as conversation. Reflective thinking is then internalized conversation while writing is externalized conversation.  And there is an interplay between the pieces so that all the pieces become part of one larger conversation. In this way, instead of living in my model, what I did when producing research in economic theory, as a writer I am trying to produce a coherent narrative for a blog post such as this one, with most of the work done in what Donald Murray called prewriting.  

Yet as I've gotten older this has become more difficult for me.  Either my skills have deteriorated with age, or I choose topics that are too ambitious for me to make an interesting contribution, or some combination of the two.  As of late, I find I get more satisfaction from reading fiction.  There is a narrative that plays out.  While the true creator is the writer, the reader can be thought of as a co-creator.  There is no coherent narrative unless the reader makes sense of it all.   Most recently I read The Master and Margarita by Mikhail Bulgakov, which I found on my son's bookshelf.  (He must have taken a course in Russian literature to fulfill a gen ed requirement.)  This was a paperback version that I could read while sitting away from the computer.  I've been making a conscious effort to spend more of my day offline, if I can.  The time spent doing that is enjoyable.

* * * * *

With all of this as background, I'm now ready to discuss the issue to which going off your rocker might provide the solution, at least for people with Asperger's or like descriptors that I considered above. The issue is how our national politics is impacting my mental health. Several times a day I find myself in what I'd call a daydream rage.  Instead of the charm of a Walter Mitty, I find my mental projection wanting to take a baseball bat and swatting the head of certain Supreme Court Justices and Members of Congress. I have other manifestations of this sort, there is no need to elaborate about them here, that together occur several times a day.  If I could willfully block them out, say by reading good fiction, there wouldn't be a problem. I could control the matter in that way.  

But I found that even when in the midst of reading The Master and Margarita these rages would occur.  Part of this is that my arthritis requires me to change my sitting position now and then and in the interlude there is time for other thoughts outside of the reading.  The other part is that after years of sitting in front of a computer screen for many hours a day, my ability to focus on one source of information and not search for other bits - check Facebook or email, etc. - is not nearly as strong as it used to be.  Maybe I can train myself to concentrate better.  But perhaps not.  And if not, these recurrent rages could become a long-term issue for me. 

I want to note that normal daydreams are essential and part of the productive process in generating a piece of writing or in any other creative activity. So, a daydream rage conceivably could be productive as well, as prelude to the Darwinian fight response.  But if repeatedly there is no actual fighting, only expressions of rage, and no apparent way to stop those expressions, then there would seem to be cause to fall into a deep depression. It is fear of that possibility that makes me want to look for other alternatives.  

The news I get comes from multiple sources.  I have an online subscription to the New York Times and the New Yorker.  Sometimes I hear what's on MSNBC as my wife is watching it in the other room.  And then I will scan what friends in Facebook have posted about what's happening, sometimes following the links they've included.  There is also national news, on occasion, in The Chronicle for Higher Education and Insider Higher Ed.  I want to observe that these sources frequently express the anger of others about the news, which sometimes stokes my own anger and at other times confirms that my anger is not an isolated case.  But it doesn't help to calm me down. Ask yourself, what would do that?  If you have similar multiple sources of news, could you go cold turkey on all of them? What then would take their place in filling out your day?

If I could create a narrative that I find completely absorbing, but keep it entirely in my head and/or make it up as I go along, with no requirement to make it coherent for others to understand, this might do the trick in warding off each daydream rage and keep me totally divorced from sources of news that might rekindle this internal desire to express intense anger. 

Is it possible to find such a narrative or is thinking it can be done merely self-delusion? And, if it were possible, would the process be irreversible? (A fantasy one might entertain is to be in some reverie which acts like suspended animation where the person can return to normal if and when our politics has returned from the abyss and functions more normally.)  Posing these questions is not difficult.  Answering them, however, is beyond me.  Instead, I will offer some conjectures.  

I would try two paths to be attempted alternatively.  Make a lot of progress with one and I can suspend trying the other path for as long as that progress lasts.  If only modest progress is being made, then switching to the alternative path would be to see if better progress can be made that way.  With either path I want to note that my mental model is to imitate how dementia develops in a patient.  Assuming that it happens gradually, with less and less outward orientation over time, as a result of the compelling nature of the inward orientation and the decline in ability in dealing with outward things that happens over time, which presumably accelerates with less practice of this sort. 

The first path I will term the productive path - working on creating a lifework that should be useful to others, Lanny Arvan's opus, so to speak.  The second path will be the drug-induced path - whether it's becoming a pothead or taking magic mushrooms on a repeated basis or some other such drug would, of course, matter a lot in implementation, but for this discussion it matters not much at all.  The underlying question that might drive pursuit along the second path is whether at this late age there are still important parts of my personality that have been underdeveloped and lack expression.  Can the drugs bring those out so they flourish fully?  And in the case of both paths, it's critical that the end not be visible from the start, so that it is unknown how long it will take to traverse the entire path. With that it is possible to imagine being fully occupied for an extended time while traversing the path.

I actually have a candidate for the productive path, based on some online learning ideas I wrote about years ago in a piece called Dialogic Learning Objects.  I have made some of these using Excel for teaching microeconomics.  A first step would be to develop a full curriculum this way, place them in some open repository for others to use, and keep on experimenting with form, function, and subject matter to engage me as the author.  This would require energy that I don't now seem to possess, but perhaps with some discipline I could learn to put in a full workday making these, while otherwise isolating myself from the rest of the world.   Prior to writing this piece I had the thought that others (mainly current college students with a nose for the subject matter) would be making these things and all my job would be is to get their attention for such a project.  Based on some recent experience I now think that alternative will be more difficult to achieve.  So why not do it all myself, instead?

Would going down the first path count as going off your rocker?  The isolating part might.  And if the objects produced ultimately get no other use, then continuing to produce them might seem at least a little bit nuts.  This gets to where the enjoyment in the creation lies.  Is it with knowing there will be ultimate use or does it simply mean pleasing oneself as the author?  That question itself might engage me for quite some time.

More people would probably agree that going down the second path does count as going off your rocker.  I will note, however, that pot was pretty ubiquitous when I was in college and LSD was rarer but not all that scarce.  My experience with these, mainly in college, also some in graduate school, is that I never lost my sense of self or my ability to think rationally and I never had a hallucination - seeing something that wasn't there at all.  In other words, it was still me, whether on drugs or not, though some of the senses were amplified.  But then it might be that the dosage or frequency of use determined this.  Would the second path require more intensive usage?  I don't know.  I know that it's been a long time for me not having done any of these drugs.  (More recently I have had Vicodin, for example when I had a kidney stone that wouldn't pass.  My recollection is that it mainly impacted my dreams but didn't do so much for when I was awake.  Also, it made me constipated.) 

The second path might entail a variety of health risks.  Those need to be compared to the risks of the onset of depression as a result of these rather frequent bouts of anger.  When I say rational choice in my title, I mean that such a cost-benefit analysis has been done and, at least in some cases, the second path will be preferable to doing nothing, which then might enable the depression.  The first path may seem safer, though shutting down communication with friends when you are otherwise not evidently needing to do so might entail its own risks.

At present the entire analysis is hypothetical.  I have not decided whether to do this.  My personal inertia is fairly great.  Doing nothing is still the likely outcome for me.  But I think it useful to work through this alternative.  And now, having written this piece, maybe I'll feel ready to write the other piece, about fully waging this virtual civil war.  In the next week or two I'll see if I'm up to writing that post as well.


Monday, July 18, 2022

When Those On A Crusade Finally Wake Up

When you're sure you're right but you aren't
The results can be truly abhorrent
Though now non compos mentis
When you come to your senses
There will be tears that are more like a torrent.
#UntilThenItWillBeANightmare

Sunday, July 17, 2022

When Plagiarism Is Good

Writing to which people will abscond
Might still make the author rather fond
For better the insight
Than to get into a fight
Then watch from above and beyond.
#CopyAndPasteWithNoLinkToTheSource

Wednesday, July 13, 2022

What to Eat and What to Wear

The sneakers were chatting with the socks
How about some bagels and lox?
But the socks were none to keen
They wanted their wearer to be lean.

The sneakers agreed with that
Though thought that if their owner were fat
That then they would hardly be used
And their lining would not be abused.

The conversation continued like that
With each tit followed by a tat
Then finally they each could root
On giving their wearer the boot.
#MuchAdoAboutTheShoe

Tuesday, July 12, 2022

To Accompany That Cup Of Coffee

Starting the day with a treat
One that is moderately sweet
Makes an inner smile
That will last a while
And helps make the rest of the day replete.
#ALittleCheatThatTastesGoodToEat

Thursday, July 07, 2022

When Our Institutions Fail

Pushing on a string
Has become the new thing
Where we need cessation
It's a path to frustration.
#WhereWhatUsedToMakeSenseNoLongerDoes

Wednesday, July 06, 2022

Mental Blocks

When it's your intention
To engage in an invention
But you're experiencing a lull
And feeling rather dull

Either conclude that you're a fake
Or give yourself a break
For the crux of the matter
Is to not become a mad hatter.

After that is done
Then go back to square one
And give it another try
Though you might just wonder why.

When you're feeling fresh
Your ideas tend to mesh
Onward and upward you go
Even if the pace is slow.
#AsTheNewsDoesNotAmuseYouShouldChooseToSingTheBlues

Tuesday, July 05, 2022

The Necessity of Failing Anew

Building from scratch
When there isn't an itch
Is hardly a natch
Yet needs more than a twitch.

Wandering in the desert
Or so it would seem
Really must come first
On the road to redeem.

In the meantime we chronicle
All that is broken
It might appear comical
As if someone has misspoken.

Yet wanting an answer
Before knowing which problem to solve
Is a form of mental cancer
And things will continue to devolve.
#WhenItIsBrokeARealFixWillBeSlowInComing

Sunday, July 03, 2022

How to Explain the Food Chain

The relationship between predator and prey
Remains remarkably true to this day
The prey keeps out of sight
So the predator can't take a bite.
#ForestallingTheInevitable

Saturday, July 02, 2022

Playthings

The little boy
Inside the old man
Wanted a new toy
Catch as catch can.

A paper airplane
Or a spinning top
Simple joy
Goody goody gumdrop.
#ChildhoodDelights

Friday, July 01, 2022

Merrily Merrily

As in the gentle stream
Life is but a dream
The only way to go
Is to take your oars and row.
#ToStayAfloatRemainInTheBoat

Thursday, June 30, 2022

What's Cooking?

The sweet potato
And the green tomato
Were looking to spice things up.

They spied an old mutt
Near the pitch and putt
But they were hoping to find a pup.
#ItWasADoggoneShame

Wednesday, June 29, 2022

Grumpty Trumpty

Grumpty Trumpty seemed to have it all
Then Grumpty Trumpty had a precipitous fall
All the sycophants and all the henchmen
Couldn't get Grumpty Trumpty to simply say when.
#HoistWithHisOwnPetard

Tuesday, June 28, 2022

Simon Says - Malaise

We seem to be living a dual existence.  One part is normalcy, whatever that means.  There is worry about the pandemic, the economy, Ukraine, and other concerns as well.  But these things weren't going to disappear from our awareness just because we wanted them to. There are always some worries.  Day to day existence for most folks hasn't changed that much, say since January 1. This is what I mean by normalcy.  The other part, however, is quite different, at least in the United States.  We seem to be in a virtual civil war, but Democrats are only waking up to that now.  Take this line seriously - all is fair in love and war.  Consider Republicans in Congress as virtual soldiers in that civil war.  Putting two and two together gives a way to make sense of their behavior.  Ditto for the talk show folks, who act as provocateurs and rabble-rousers rather than as analysts of what is going on in our politics for viewers to get a better understanding.  

If this description of a dual existence is reasonably correct, then many questions follow for ordinary Democrats, who are now seeing the situation for what it is. And here let me bring in some bits from higher education, particularly about the mental health crisis for students, which predates the pandemic.  There will be parallel mental health issues for ordinary Democrats, who will see this virtual civil war as the system failing...big time.  One possible way to manage one's own mental well being is to withdraw from the politics and live a heads down existence.  Obviously, this is far from perfect.  But it does allow one to not be constantly consumed with anger.  The opposite would be to fully engage in virtual civil war activities.  If most family, friends, and work colleagues are not yet doing that it could be a very lonely undertaking, at least initially.  It may make you appear fringe to others who know you.   The malaise I'm referring to in the post title comes from being unsure of which of these paths to follow or if there is yet another way that combines a sense of agency about this virtual civil war with a calm rather than angry presence.  Searching for that elusive third path can contribute to the delay in making a choice and makes the malaise that much greater.  

Before I get to what fully engaged in virtual civil war activities might mean, I want to take a step into the past, about a post I wrote back in late September 2020.  At the time of the post the NY Times had recently uncovered Trump's tax returns and the take away from that was startling.  In particular, Trump held a massive amount of debt and being President helped him service that debt and in the future might help him roll it over. I wish Democrats kept up hammering on Trump being so financially in the hole from then to now, because it is a big deal and the public needs a constant reminder of it.  Yet, as with much that is Trump, the latest news seems to crowd out past transgressions.  As far as I know, the connection between Stop the Steal and Trump's tax returns hasn't been made in the NY Times or elsewhere.  It needs to become a commonly discussed matter, perhaps the center of attention.  

The other big thing at that time was that Amy Coney Barrett had been nominated to the Supreme Court, but the vote on her approval had not yet taken place in the Senate.  This was less than six weeks before the coming Presidential election.  The post I wrote was called Honor Among Thieves And Among Supreme Court Justices.  The post discusses the following question.  If Supreme Court candidates nominated by Trump were aware of his financial indiscretions as well as his obstruction of justice during the Mueller investigation (and how could they not be so aware) what is their subsequent responsibility regarding accepting the nomination and then making rulings on the court?  This is the penultimate paragraph from that post. 

However, I know many people who feel now that America is going to hell in a hand basket. Trump has dramatically accelerated this decline.  Creating real surprise by going against the forecast in a way that is personally costly but also evidently aimed at respecting the rule of law, might be a way for America to get past this dreadful moment.  For that to happen, Trump needs to lose this election and the Supreme Court needs to certify that.  Sacrificing the national well being so as to get rid of the Roe v. Wade decision, also can't happen.  It's clear that has been motivating the recent rapid pace of Federal judicial appointments.  But it is equally clear that the myopic focus on this objective is bringing the country down.

That was then.  This is now.  The country has been brought down, way down.  One further observation needs to be made.  The system provides instruments to discipline those in government who have violated their oath of office.  But clearly the system is broken now and we simply can't expect it to fix itself.  In particular, impeachment can't work in a country where the President, Members of Congress, and Justices of the Supreme Court put politics before country.  So, other forms of punishment are needed if there is to be a credible deterrent to future egregious violations.  These other forms would amount to ordinary citizens taking the law into their own hands.  Under normal circumstances, that is to be avoided.  The Ox-Bow Incident, a book and movie from long ago, offers a grim reminder of the terrible things that can happen.  One need not focus exclusively on the events of January 6, 2021 to consider this issue.  But if we are truly in a virtual civil war, these other forms of punishment will become necessary as a way to operate, because nothing else will work as credible deterrent.  

* * * * *

Democrats are playing a game of catch-up in prosecuting this virtual civil war.  Further, since ordinary citizens taking the law into their own hands will be illegal much of the time, it can't be the Democratic Party itself that sanctions these activities, at least not initially.  So I am going to imagine a not-yet-formed parallel organization whose purpose is to wage this virtual civil war on the part of Democratic voters and those who care  about particular issues, notably abortion, without otherwise being affiliated with a party.  It might be useful to name this organization so people can more readily identify it.  I am not great at coming up with names, but I will offer this one up as a placeholder - the Minute Women. 

Some of the goals I'll suggest for the Minute Women are as follows:

  • To get the three Supreme Court Justices appointed while Trump was President off the Court, either voluntarily or otherwise.
  • To get the Republicans in Congress who openly or tacitly endorsed Stop the Steal to confess their wrongdoing and then accept punishment for it, either by paying a hefty fine or by serving time in jail. 
  • To have Congress pass new legislation that embraces the precepts of Roe and to have the newly constituted Supreme Court find that law Constitutional. 
  • Likewise, Congress needs new legislation to undo the Citizens United decision as well as the Shelby County vs. Holder decision on the use of the Voting Rights Act.  That act needs to be used vigorously in all states that have recently passed voter restriction legislation.  
  • Ultimately to create child organizations in each state to fight the right-wing agenda at the state level.

This list could be made longer, but it suffices for the sake of illustration. The question then is how the Minute Women should act in ways to realize these goals.   I will get to that in the next paragraph.  First I want to make the following assumption, which I think is reasonable.  While the Republicans in high political office have found it acceptable to wage a virtual civil war, they do not want it to escalate into a real civil war.  They will lose if this happens, on a personal level because there are many perqs of office that would no longer be forthcoming, and on a national level because they are really the minority party, as the popular vote in recent Presidential elections demonstrate.  This is not to say there is no risk of escalation into an actual civil war.  Both sides have incentive to push as hard as they can, as long as it remains a virtual civil war.  So, there are elements of a game of chicken here.

The Minute Women will actually be two distinct units.  The first, the overt arm, will make the case as publicly as possible that it's not just Trump who is a criminal.  The Republicans in Congress who embraced Stop the Steal are co-conspirators, lending a cover off legitimacy where there shouldn't be any.  And the Supreme Court appointees made under Trump are tainted, remarkably so.  The honorable thing for them to do is to step down on their own accord.  Right wing media can also be part of this case, as they've shielded their followers from the illegality of what has been done. 

The second, the covert arm, will act to terrorize a small number of these Republicans, to pressure them to step down, in the case of the Supreme Court Justices, or to admit their culpability, in the case of Members of Congress.  Further, they will make it evident that the terrorism will persist until the goals, as articulated by the overt arm, have been met.  The hope would be that once that threat is evident, many Republicans will become compliant and/or quit, to avoid themselves becoming victims.

For this to work, there must be highly skilled professionals in each arm, fully versed in the mission, with a skill set that is capable of achieving the goals.  And the overt arm must have at most tacit knowledge of the covert arm's existence, so it is not legally responsible for the actions taken by the covert arm.  The details on how to do this are well beyond my knowledge.  But I trust that it is doable.  The issue is whether there is the will to go this route.  

* * * * *

Maureen Dowd's most recent column, The Radical Reign of Clarence Thomas, is disturbing in highlighting the role that Joe Biden played in Thomas' confirmation, as chair of the Senate Judiciary Committee, ultimately discounting the testimony of Anita Hill in the process.  In the present circumstances, it seems that Biden is a liability as President.  Ultimately, he too may have to step down, for the work of the Minute Women to succeed and ultimately the Democratic Party will have to embrace the tenets that the Minute Women put forward.  

What would an ordinary person like you or me do in service for the Minute Women.  I am not sure but I can say this, based on the small sample of friends I have in Facebook who have commented about the recent political events, invariably expressing their dismay and frustration.  Those feelings don't translate immediately into an endorsement for the Minute Women as a concept.  But, I think, people would be open to arguing the point.  When I say people here, I mean already friends in the Facebook sense.  I, for one, don't want to have such arguments on the open Internet with people I don't already know a little.  But maybe I can encourage others, who are younger than I am and have more energy than I have, to do just that.  I also expect there to be a fundraising aspect to this, though exactly how that would work I don't know.  And then somehow, there would need to a feedback loop created onto the usual Democratic politics.  

Would I feel in over my head if I did this?  Maybe I would.  The malaise I feel is real enough and there are reasons for that.  But, now that I've gotten this post out of my system, I do feel a little bit better.

Sunday, June 26, 2022

The Intense T-Storm

Seeing lightning
With closed eyes
The thunder frightening
Mother Nature cries.

Emerging from a dream
With nowhere to hide
Thankfully the stream
Remained outside.
#YetSomehowTheBirdsAreStillChirpingThisMorning

Friday, June 24, 2022

Will We Begin To Hear Mea Culpa?

In a morality play
You've got to pay
When the piper eventually comes.

Yet it's hard to count
The precise amount
Since it's herculean sums.
#OrIsThisOnlyWishfulThinkingByDemocrats

Thursday, June 23, 2022

Prevarication By Another Name

The non-denial denial
Is back on trial
Providing much to revile
We'll be at it for a while.
#ThenYouDiscoverWeMightNotRecover

Wednesday, June 22, 2022

If Only Wishing Would Change The Past

While living inside your head
Memories get retread
Mistakes you made
Are then replayed
Upon reflection you come out ahead.
#TooBadYouCantGoBackInTimeAndDoItOver

Tuesday, June 21, 2022

A Hype Dream

Innovation and its subsequent diffusion
First a sensation then confusion
For what is it that is truly new
And about it why make such a big to-do?
#FocusOnTheCleverAdaptationOfTheEarlyAdopter

Monday, June 20, 2022

The Uncle Joe Model

When moving slow
Is as fast as you go

And you may hardly care
About getting there

Yet merely in moving
One can be grooving

Then one finds that motion
Is its own magic potion.
#WalkingTheWalkWhileTheMindIsTalkingTheTalk

Sunday, June 19, 2022

The Best Location For Textual Creation

The place where you do your writing
Should be boring rather than exciting
Though to be fair
A comfortable chair
Prevents the prose from becoming overly biting.
#AndTheKeyboardShouldBeProppedUpAboveTheLevelOfTheDesk

Saturday, June 18, 2022

Timing Is Everything

Sometimes it's good to take a chance
With setting the publishing date in advance
Then when you're on the road
If your laptop is a load
Leave it at home and at your phone only glance.
#BloggerHasThisFeatureWhyDoesntFacebook

Friday, June 17, 2022

Crying For Attention

When your favorite flowers are forget-me-nots
And your loyal blog readers prove to be bots
Then it's unclear how you should behave
For it's a real audience that you crave.
#GiveUpTheGhostOrMakeARaucousPost

Thursday, June 16, 2022

Taking Our Cues From Mollusks and Reptiles

The snail and the tortoise
Don't have rigor mortis
They just move kind of slow
These days it's the way to go.
#AndTheyRemainInTheirShells

Wednesday, June 15, 2022

The Duchy of Grand Fenwick Is Back on the Map

The mouse that unexpectedly roared
Tried hard after that to remain ignored
Yet it was getting more and more attention
The bulk of which were favorable mentions.
#WhenLosingWinsAndOtherCreativeSpins

Tuesday, June 14, 2022

Playing It Forward Through Backward Induction

This post is about thinking through the possible consequences of the hearing by the House Committee on the January 6, 2021 events.  My premonitions about this have caused me considerable anxiety. I'm going to try to put those aside in this post and do the type of analysis that blends knowledge about how people learn, on the one hand, with economics/game theory, on the other.  

The first speaks to the question of how Trump supporters will react to the evidence that is provided during the hearings (and the evidence that has already been provided).  Yesterday, while overhearing what was being aired on MSNBC while my wife was watching TV, the following argument was made more than once.  In a situation where people hear evidence that counters their prior held view, who the messenger is matters.  The House Committee has been careful to present the evidence from Republicans in Trump's corner.  Specifically, much was made of the testimony given by former Attorney General William Barr.  If this argument holds sway, then by the time the hearings have concluded most Americans will conclude that the election wasn't stolen and that claiming otherwise was a diversion created by President Trump for his own personal and political benefit. 

But there is a quite different possibility entirely.  The following paragraph is taken from a post I wrote about a decade ago called: Is reasoning taking a beating?  I think the entire post is relevant for understanding our current politics, but the particular paragraph is especially relevant while not being about politics at all. 

In the book, What the Best College Teachers Do, Ken Bain teaches us that students don't know what to do when they confront evidence that contradicts their prior held world view.  Perhaps it is surprising to learn that the initial student reaction is to deny the evidence.  The world view has sanctity and deep down the student wants to preserve it.  The excellent teacher understands the tension the student is under.  With patience and persistence, the instructor nudges the student to reconsider his position.  It would be good for that position to account for the evidence that is observed.  Of course, in this case Bain is referring to an academic matter.  When looking at circular motion the students are apt to have an Aristotelian view.  A Newtonian perspective appears unnatural.  There is a getting used to period necessary to take on the new perspective.  There is leadership in helping students make the transition.

This paragraph suggests that people might very well retain their prior world view in spite of evidence to the contrary.  Further, in regard to the events of January 6, 2021, there is obviously a question of whether people watch the hearings directly and in full or if, instead, they watch the hearings as they've been filtered through their favorite news outlet, which cherry picks segments and excludes much of the rest.  There is no doubt that viewers of Fox News are getting a different story than viewers of MSNBC. 

Thus, it seems more than possible that one of two different scenarios will prevail.   In the first scenario, the vast majority of Americans converge in the belief that the 2020 election was not stolen.  There may still be substantial disagreement about how to manage the situation given such beliefs, which I would summarize as either punish severely or largely forgive and forget.  But in this first scenario we'd be coming at these managing-the-situation questions with a general consensus of what had occurred.  In the second scenario, there is no such consensus.  We remain a divided nation about whether the 2020 election was stolen.  And members of each side in this hold contempt for members of the other side. 

Now, let's complicate this admittedly simple characterization some.  This is about the intensity of the belief as measured by the perceived consequences assuming the belief is true.  For Democrats, especially the ones who are regular watchers of MSNBC, the nation is in crisis and is under grave risk that we will become a fascist state.  But, for example, consider those swing voters who voted for Obama but then switched to vote for Trump.  Many of them may be upset at the Democrats now because of the high inflation they are seeing as well as the shortages of goods (notably baby formula).  These voters may vote Republican in November, even if they believe the election was not stolen in 2020.  

Thus, we now have two dimensions to consider.  The first is whether the hearings are persuasive in convincing Americans that there was no steal.  The second is in regards to which party controls the House after the elections in November.   To this one might further complicate things by considering the behavior of Congressional Republicans between now and the November elections.  Will the House Republicans led by Kevin McCarthy stick with their current line, that the hearings are a sham?  Or, in the event that the hearings do appear to be broadly persuasive, might these House Republicans change their tune and then help to achieve consensus?   And, surely, there can be further dimensions to complicate the picture even more.  But I see no reason in doing so now for the purpose of the analysis. 

We've reached the point where we can perform the backward induction.  In the economics/game theory approach, one solves for the equilibrium in the future first, or solves for all the possible equilibria in the future when the future is not uniquely determined, and then, given that future to fix expectations, one solves for equilibrium (or equilibria) in the present.  What seems evident now is that the January 6, 2021 House Committee members have a strong preference for the outcome where the hearings are broadly persuasive, while the House Republicans under McCarthy have the opposite preference.  If most Americans now line up with one side or the other at present, what will they do if their side wins and what will they do if their side loses?

Those questions seem straightforward enough and yet they are too difficult for me to respond to with straightforward answers.  Instead, I will give some unknowns for me.  Are the Proud Boys and the Oath Keepers far out there and thus unlike most Trump supporters who believe the election was stolen?  Or is there a continuum of sorts here?  In other words, I would certainly predict there would be more violence in the event that the hearings are broadly persuasive, more so if the Democrats retain the House, but it's very hard to have a sense of the scale of that violence.  Would it be a fringe activity or the beginning of a civil war?  A further unknown is how the police, in particular, but really all law enforcement, respond to the threat of such violence.  And here the complications may be more obvious.  If these fringe Trump supporters are in possession of large amount of assault weapons, as seems likely to me, law enforcement and warfare will seem to blend.  Will the police get strong support from the rest of America, even if events in the last couple of years have challenged such support?  

Now lets consider the other possibility, where the hearings are only mildly persuasive to those who supported Trump and there remains a large following of Trump supporters who believe the 2020 election was stolen, even after the hearings conclude.  How will Democrats react in this case?  I will answer this one from my own perspective.  There seems to be way too much trust in the system to warrant it and I have concluded some time ago that the system is broken and requires a strong response.  Jamelle Bouie's column today asserts that this is a generational thing, where younger Democrats agree that the system is broken but older ones cling to current beliefs as if it were the past where the system did function reasonably well (the Vietnam War and Watergate notwithstanding).  If the system is broken and your side seems to be losing in the current political conflict, what then?  Is there a sensible alternative to resorting to violence at this point?  Or, if we would be heading to fascism under this scenario, would any non-violent alternative amount to appeasement?

Suppose you answered yes to that last question, but you recognized that Democrats, who are largely anti gun, are terribly unprepared for a violent alternative that might escalate into a civil war.  What would you do then?  On a personal note, I get a large number of solicitations from Democrats for funding their campaigns, both by email and by snail mail.  I have donated in the past on occasion.  This, I suppose, is how the system works now.  But I have not received any communications about preparing for the possible contingency that is described in the first sentence of this paragraph.  Indeed, I don't think that elected officials of either party want to openly talk about a broken system.  If that's right, leadership on this will have to come from elsewhere.  I would like to see evidence of such leadership.  I would then give my support to their effort. 

These days I write a piece like this essay largely to get the ideas out of my system, if I can.  In the past I've found that when I put in the effort to write up my ideas, I can move onto something else in my thinking.  If I don't write in this way, I'll just keep stewing about it over and over again   I'm hoping to get past my fixation with this piece.  

I learned when I was a campus administrator that while writing this blog and discussing controversial issues I should put forward arguments which were less advocacy for a particular approach and more inquiry into the issues at hand.  Style-wise, that's what I've tried for in this piece.  If you are one of the rare few who have reached this point in the reading, I hope it has piqued your interest in getting at answers to these questions, and thanks for your attention.

When You Don't Have It Made In The Shade

There’s farmer Lan
Now sporting a tan
Not part of the plan
But you do what you can.
#ANewGeezerCrazeCatchingSomeRays

Monday, June 13, 2022

Very Hot Indeed

So the heatwave begins
Atonement for our sins
Of which there have been many
And good deeds, have there been any?
#TheSummerOfOurDiscontentAlasItWillNotRelent

Sunday, June 12, 2022

How Do Each Of Us React To The Recent News?

Trying to understand
The attraction of the sand
And if there is something instead
Of merely burying my head.
#NotCopingSoMopingThoughItSeemsToBlockHoping

Saturday, June 11, 2022

It's No Longer Couth To Utter The Truth

From Liberal bias in the press
Murdoch made a great big mess
So now we have different versions of news
Not to elucidate, mainly to confuse.
#WhenTheFourthEstateIsInclinedToPrate

Friday, June 10, 2022

How do you persuade somebody that they've been brainwashed?

I have been spending much of the day trying to reconcile last night's hearing with this long opinion piece from the NY Times, particularly this paragraph.  

The right’s new culture war represents the worldview of people the sociologist Donald Warren called “Middle American radicals,” or M.A.Rs. This demographic, which makes up the heart of Mr. Trump’s electoral base, is composed primarily of non-college-educated middle- and lower-middle-class white people, and it is characterized by a populist hostility to elite pieties that often converges with the old social conservatism. But M.A.Rs do not share the same religious moral commitments as their devoutly Christian counterparts, both in their political views and in their lifestyles. As Ross Douthat noted, nonchurchgoing Trump voters are “less likely to be married and more likely to be divorced” than those who regularly attend religious services. No coincidence, then, that a 2021 Gallup poll showed 55 percent of Republicans now support gay marriage — up from just 28 percent in 2011.

The core question is this: how will the M.A.Rs react to the House Committee investigation of the events on January 6, 2021.  Will they treat it as a witch hunt and nothing more? They surely will be getting a filtered version of the hearings and what was said and shown there.  Somewhere, I can't remember the source now, I heard that Fox Business aired the hearings but Fox News did not.  Do M.A.Rs rely primarily and perhaps exclusively on Fox News for staying up to date?  If you presume that's true and you presume as well that Fox News will treat the investigation as part of the new culture war, then there would seem to be no way for the American people as a whole to reach the same conclusion about the events on January 6, 2021.  What would be the consequences of that?

It seems to me then the election in November can't work with the vast majority of people accepting the results, but now we're talking about elections on a state level and a Congressional district level.  There will be chaos.  Can such chaos resolve itself in short order?  I don't see how it can.  

If the election is left unresolved, the instability will lead to violence.  Indeed, there may be threatened violence to intimidate voters on Election Day.  There could very well be a tit-for-tat that would then escalate.  That's my fear. 

Those who are trusting of the normal electoral process, more Democrats then Republicans at this point, probably expect that the police and possibly the military would be brought in to squelch the violence.  So, part of what I've been scratching my head about is this.  If you did a political polling of the police and the military, what fraction of them are M.A.Rs?  Would those who are take sides in the aftermath of the election rather than perform their duty?

There is too much I don't know here to think this through fully.  But it certainly has me worried. 

Thursday, June 09, 2022

The Chips Are In

Chocolate chocolate chip
Or regular chocolate chip?

I would gladly play hookie
To have a good cookie.
#AtBreakfastASnackIsBetterThanAWisecrack

Monday, June 06, 2022

It's All A Blur

Thinking while your glasses are smudged
There's a tendency for your ideas to fudge
In your mind you see
With uncertainty
Finding your way takes quite a long trudge.
#ItSeemsTheDustInTheHouseHasSpecialAffinityForMyGlasses

Sunday, June 05, 2022

Say It Five Times Fast

Twisting your tongue
Among the young
Is a form of play

But when adults misspeak
More than once a week
We question what they say.
#UniqueNewYork

Saturday, June 04, 2022

Packaging Versus What's In The Box

When the title is compelling
But the column is boring
We're done in by the selling
Which we should be ignoring.
#ExcessPromotionCreatesACommotion

Friday, June 03, 2022

The Innocence of Youth

When a little boy stomps in a puddle
There is no accompanying intellectual muddle
It's just the thing to do
With his foot in his shoe
Later in bed his Teddy he will cuddle.
#ChildhoodForAWhileMischiefWithoutGuile

Thursday, June 02, 2022

Right As Rain

The recent weather forecasts have been off
But who am I to scoff
For when economists predict
It is surely an edict
That some doubting Thomas will cough.
#SkepticismHealthyAndOtherwise

Wednesday, June 01, 2022

Take A Deep Breath

When plan A has gone off the rails
And all else that's been tried also fails
Then it's time for a smile
And to wait a good while
Reconsidering goals helps to exhale.
#ModestAspirationLimitsPerspiration

Tuesday, May 31, 2022

The French Open

Tennis when played on clay
Groundstrokes should win the day
But there are always curves
Which amount to nerves
And determination will have its say.
#ItDontMeanAThingIfYouAintGotThatSwing

Monday, May 30, 2022

Oh What A Beautiful Morning

Conjuring up the powers to beguile
With the simple aim to make you smile
As the day begins it's very sunny
That should be paired with a bit of funny.
#TheDispositionProposition

Sunday, May 29, 2022

The Kids Do Grow Up.....Eventually

When the children become adults
The thing about the results
They want happy p's
So aim to please
And even enjoy the technology consults!
#AcrossTheGenerationsAffectionAndLiberation

Saturday, May 28, 2022

We Are Descending Beyond A Happy Ending

When the Beast
Has lost his yeast
And Beauty is no more

Then the game
Becomes assigning blame
And pining for Elsinore.
#DealingWithNowEvenJeanCocteauWouldntKnowHow

Friday, May 27, 2022

Junk Food Makes ForJunk Ideas

The irrelevant elephant
Made an argument
That was elegant

While the bandito mosquito
Made a chomp
With a Cheeto.
#FoodForThoughtIsWhatYouOught

Thursday, May 26, 2022

Related and Obligated

The siblings
Began their quibbling
Because there was no appetizer for nibbling.

While the cousins
Of whom there were dozens
Hope the long email simply wasn't.

#ADifferentTheoryOfRelativity

Wednesday, May 25, 2022

A Simple Way To Enjoy The Day

Starting the day with a treat
A way to keep the disposition sweet
Then a bad joke or two
Before bidding adieu
And you too will feel complete.
#BeforeTheNewspaperOrTVNewsShow

Tuesday, May 24, 2022

Our Fallibility In The Simple Puzzles We Play

In wordplay taking a tumble
So cheating while doing the Jumble
What a relief
To end the grief
Next time on the theme you won't fumble.
#UnlikeTheRangeSometimesThereIsADiscouragingScrambledWord

Monday, May 23, 2022

The Long Term Consequences Of Sustained Isolation

Slithering into madness
After a prolonged sadness
It would seem
A frightening dream
Repeatedly making a bad mess.
#DescendingIntoTheAbyssCanBeHardToResist

Saturday, May 21, 2022

When The Road Not Taken Turns Into The Beaten Path

Drained by repeated convention
So looking for personal reinvention
Then trying something new
With which to make a to-do
Yet wanting early success defeated the intention.
#AimingForASplashLeadsToACrash

Friday, May 20, 2022

With Apologies To The Doors

Riders on the storm
Riders on the storm
Practicing their form
Becoming the new norm
We feel so all alone
Weird skills we do hone
Riders on the storm.

#TheyAreTheBellwetherForRepeatedNastyWeather

Wednesday, May 18, 2022

Our National Politics in Metaphor

The Congressional Republicans are Jabez Stone.  Who will be their Dan'l Webster?
https://gutenberg.net.au/ebooks06/0602901h.html

It occurs to me that we can't talk rationally across party lines, but metaphors such as this might still be possible topics of conversation that can be batted around.  The original story by Stephen Vincent Benet is definitely worth the read, in its own right.  And as a metaphor for now, I think it illuminates as well.

Civil War Seems The Inevitable Conclusion

Connecting the past to the present
The conclusion is rather unpleasant
Hoping appeasement
Will provide an easement
Simply enables the torment to ferment.
#TheRoadToFascism

Tuesday, May 17, 2022

When People Are Perceived As Things

When someone always speaks in the first person
Anyone else then becomes an object
After that the situation will worsen
Lacking kindness and showing no sense of respect.
#WeMighEvenDiscardThoseWeDisregard

Monday, May 16, 2022

The Dwarfs After Snow White Married The Prince

When Grumpy felt frumpy
He would chat with Doc
Who said Sleepy was creepy
And that's no crock.

Since it was Happy who took a nappy
To counter the shock
While Dopey was mopey
As his timepiece went tick-tock.
#WhatAboutSneezyAndBashful


Sunday, May 15, 2022

Nathaniel Hawthorne Junior High

Like their older siblings who came before
They too attended seventy-four
Where you had to take shop

And homeroom was a prop
To park your coat, then offer so much more.
#7thGradeWasNotQuiteAnEscapade

Saturday, May 14, 2022

This One Is More Than 280 Characters

The nestling became stuck in the tree
Where no other birds could be found
The nestling struggled to be set free
To be able to walk on the ground.

Taking it all in was the giraffe
Who said to herself - what the heck?
She had to suppress an inner laugh
But then decided to stick out her neck.
#AFriendIndeedWhenSomeoneIsInNeed

Friday, May 13, 2022

College Kids On The Skids

Bring back Spanky and Alfalfa
Who really liked playing hookie
It's not a matter of nostalgia
But how 'bout a chocolate chip cookie?
#YouCantHaveFunWhenUnderTheGun

Thursday, May 12, 2022

The Last Place You Look

Putting dishes away in the wrong place
Will that lead to you losing face?
Some cooking stuff
Seems exotic fluff
Knowing where it goes your memory will erase.
#WhenASenseOfResponsibilityAndAnInstinctForSlothAreOpposed

Wednesday, May 11, 2022

Will-O'-The-Wisp

An idea comes as a flicker
You'll lose it if you aren't quicker
Then with some dismay
You find that you will say
It won't reappear and that's the kicker.
#TheSubconsciousTeasesUsWithItsMysteries

Tuesday, May 10, 2022

When Monopoly Was A Good Thing

If you take a ride on the Reading Railroad
And do not pass Go
Your stash of cash may implode
Depending on who owns it, you know.
#TheRollOfTheDiceGaveTheGameSpice

Monday, May 09, 2022

Dissonance - Cognitive and Otherwise

I want to contrast the day to day life I lead - too much time sitting in front of the computer, wisecracking with friends and family during the occasional Zoom call, complaining about the various aches and pains mostly which are due to arthritis, on a daily basis doing some short form writing while much less less frequently writing something long form such as this post, worrying about what we should have for dinner, tracking how the Yankees are doing now that it's baseball season, and a host of other behaviors that I would describe as normal, even if they are not completely routine.  Our downstairs furnace/AC has not been functioning and today the guy from Lanz is here to do repairs and the semi-annual maintenance.  It turns out that the thermostat had gone bad (no idea why) and was just replaced.  So the unit is functioning now.  Hurray!!  Day to day existence does provide its little victories now and then.  And it provides its little pleasures too.  Yesterday to celebrate Mother's day we went to Sun Singer for happy hour.  We had a glass of wine (better quality than the normal fare we have at home) and a margherita flatbread which was very tasty.   We sat outside for that.  If the weather remains mild, we'll be doing that more frequently.  I wear a mask when going shopping, which now seems to be the new normal, but I don't wear one at home, even when the repairman is here to visit.  Not perfectly consistent, I will admit.  But it seems normal to me.

There is a non-normal part of my day that I will describe below.  But first I want to contrast my usual home life with what seems to be our disastrous national politics.  Here I will list and give brief descriptions about what bugs me that I'm not seeing discussed much at all. 

  • The decline in manufacturing, which probably goes back to the 1980s but manifest for real in 1990s, coupled with the decline in unions (remember that Reagan busted PATCO, which was the start of the whole thing), was a complete disaster for White male blue collar types.  They couldn't or wouldn't adjust to service sector employment (at lower wages than they had been earning previously).  This is the fundamental source of anger among Trump's base. 
  • The second war in Iraq, the one that followed U.S. involvement in Afghanistan after 9/11, was another complete disaster.  There weren't any WMDs.  The Iraqi people didn't want Americans there.  Many vets after returning home committed suicide.  Since the military is all volunteer, one wonders how many of these people enlisted in the first place because of poor economic prospects at home.  If that was typical, the Iraq war was rubbing salt into the wound.
  • People who are not healthy from an economic perspective often become unhealthy in a way where they need to see a medical doctor.  The opioid epidemic was largely concentrated in these blue collar types and, in a downward spiral, made them unemployable thereafter.  Life became hopeless for them. 
  • If the regular labor market wasn't going to solve this issue, then perhaps government spending in the form of massive infrastructure investment would provide a sufficient number of decent blue collar jobs.  Further, America's infrastructure has been declining at least since Reagan, so this would be killing two birds with one stone. This piece by Felix Rohatyn and Everett Ehrlich to establish a national infrastructure bank came out prior to the 2008 election.  That never got done.  You might argue that if the Democrats had fought off the Tea Party challenge in 2010 and retained control of the House, it would have gotten done then.  Alternatively, you might argue that this should have preceded the fight for Obamacare, since the case for doing something big about infrastructure should have had cross-party appeal and there would have been a better chance for the Democrats to maintain control of the House that way.

In sum, we don't connect our present social ailments to our history in a very good way.  This has let Trump own the MAGA types by feeding them red meat - xenophobia and racism - without doing anything of note to help them economically.  We know from history that movements toward fascism are prefaced by economic dislocation of the masses.  This gives a strong reason to connect to our history.  Nonetheless, we don't seem to do it.

Let me turn to the next set of issues which can be summed up with two points:

  • Democrats are too reactive.  We knew that the Supreme Court was going to overturn Roe ever since Amy Coney Barrett was appointed an Associate Justice.  Why else was there a rush to get that appointment in while Trump was still President?  How come it takes Alito's leaked draft to elicit such a strong response?  Why wasn't a well planned strong response contemplated and articulated much earlier?
  • Democrats put too much faith in the system and that it will correct itself.  There is ample evidence that the system has been manipulated by the Republicans in a way that is horrible for democracy.  Why should anyone trust the system now?  And if that's the right way to consider things, why not work through outside-the-system approaches that can be effective?  

Then there is the flip side of this.  In a recent opinion piece by Jamelle Bouie called Why Republicans Are So Angry About the Supreme Court Leak, he argues that:

When McConnell led the Senate Republican caucus in a blockade of President Barack Obama’s nominee for the Supreme Court in 2016 and then killed what remained of the judicial filibuster the next year to place Neil Gorsuch in the seat instead, they diminished the legitimacy of the court. When those same Republicans looked past a credible accusation of sexual assault to confirm Brett Kavanaugh in 2018, they again diminished the legitimacy of the court. And when, with weeks left before the 2020 presidential election, Republicans ignored their own rule from four years earlier — that an election-year vacancy “should not be filled until we have a new president” — to place Amy Coney Barrett on the bench in a rushed, slapdash process, they once more diminished the legitimacy of the court.

I would add to this McConnell's blockade of Obama's nomination of Merrick Garland had a significant influence on the 2016 election as it strongly encouraged those who wanted to get rid of Roe to vote, with that having an immediate impact given the open seat on the Court.  Further, the Senate's perfunctory dismissal of the charges in the two impeachment trials let a criminal President off the hook.  The outcome of the first trial allowed Trump to nominate Amy Coney Barrett, even though she must have been well aware of his criminal acts. This followed William Barr's perfunctory dismissal of the Mueller Report. In our country's move toward fascism, there have been many steps taken.  The enablers are first McConnell, then Barr, and then other Republicans in Congress.  Their lack of spine in dealing with these dismal realities offers another reason to work outside the system to stop this descent into societal madness. 

We seem headed for Civil War.  How much of that will be violence versus information warfare of some kind or still some other form of warfare I cannot say.  But there doesn't seem to me to be a path that gets everyone back to a normally functioning society without such a civil war happening first.  I can't be the only one who thinks and feels this way.  

Now let me try to bring this back to me personally and how it impacts my day to day existence.  At home, my wife and I often do separate things.  She will watch TV - often gardening shows, or shows about house fixer uppers, some light comedy too, but then a good dose of MSNBC.  I'm sitting at my computer, which is in a different room, but when I don't use earbuds I can hear the TV.  And once in a while it sparks a rage in me.  Sometimes it's reading something online that sparks the rage. I don't do anything about it, but I do think about it.  I know from when I was working full time that anger is not a good emotion for me.  I lose my rationality when I'm angry and I get even more single-minded than I usually am.  I'm okay with getting angry when the ref makes a bad call in a basketball game I'm watching.  But that's about the only situation where I think my anger is okay.  Otherwise, I'm afraid that my anger will take me down a bad path.

I have thought for a while that high-level Democrats should model voters like me after the Walter White character in Breaking Bad.  In addition to the anger, there is substantial intelligence coupled with a demoralizing sense of impotence.  And some of this anger is directed at Democrats because they seem not to get this - they are still trusting the process implicitly.  

I hope they'll figure it out before it's too late.

Varying Points of View

The ineffectual intellectual
Advanced the proposition
That knowledge is contextual.

While the uncouth youth
Who grew up in Duluth
Went in search of absolute truth.
#ADifferenceInPerspectiveCanEvokeAnInvective

Sunday, May 08, 2022

Mouthing Off

Function and Dys
Along with their sis
On treats they were nibbling
Each and every sibling.
#ThoughElatedTheyWerOrallyFixated

Saturday, May 07, 2022

The Spirit of Norman Rockwell

The husbands are left to their own devices
As the wives converse about gardens and spices
In the suburban life we're getting to know
Everyone is your neighbor and taking it slow.
#TheSunIsShiningSoItIsTimeToMakeHay

 

Thursday, May 05, 2022

The Winning Streak Is Over

All good things come to an end
We hope another one can extend
The Yankees hold on first place
Well positioned for the pennant race.
#ItAintOverTilItsOver

Wednesday, May 04, 2022

The Vicious Cycle

The overly frustrated
Are readily manipulated
By obtuse views
Supported by fake news
Then our politics becomes completely castrated.
#HistoryRepeatsButTheInternetGivesItANovelSpin

Tuesday, May 03, 2022

Twas Brillig

The Jabberwocky
Played knock hockey
But didn't use a stick.

He bumped into Puck
Then ran out of luck
As the board became too slick.

#WhatDoWeRememberFromEnglishClassInHighSchool

Monday, May 02, 2022

No Intents Offended

A social goof
During an innocent spoof
May inadvertently rile
The frown replaces the smile.

Then it depends
On making amends
In a way that's real
With touch and feel.

#SteppingIntoPooWhatNextShouldYouDo

Sunday, May 01, 2022

Severe Storms And Changing Norms

When the lightning strikes close
And you wonder if you'll be toast
Then it's worth taking note
Of those Mother Nature hadn't smote.
#ForABriefTimeItWasVeryScaryLastNight